Seems like yesterday he gone from my life...but it almost 4 month he left me behind..what??is this what they called something name love??I don't know...I'm just confuse with myself...I try to catch my dreams but at the same time,I had lost someone that really close to me..I try to let myself calm down,,I try to enjoy my life as a teenage girl but,the more I laugh,the more pain I can feel at botttom of my heart..He is the one who teach me how to survive in this biggest world and he also had open my eyes to see everything around me..He has a lot of members that I never communicate with..but,from there I learnt that every single person that live in this world is same just like us.He tells me everything,,how he gone through his life until he got his own money to support his family...He came from such a huge family and I dont think so many of us dont will to have so many kids in the house...But this people is different..He have 16 siblings and he is the last one.I love to be close to people that have many siblings...sometimes,this group share same probs,same story and everything..I had met with one of his sister and they treat me so nicely...we chat for about half an hours..just to know about the family...it fun...I'm really enjoy it..and that is only a memories to me..i still hope that one day he will forgive all that I had done to him..Until now I still cannot forget what had happen in the past..I really regret it..'If' question always came to hunt me..i feel terrible..really... :(
